Insomnia or is my sleep schedule off?

Once I started to limit my activity’s, I started sleeping all day and waking up in the middle of the night after everyone else is gone to bed. Not spending as much time with my daughter as I would like but even she knew I either needed to rest or go to Urgent Care. I decided to rest. This is day three or four days of basic bed rest. Luckily her father can make sure I have everything I need up the stairs.

The swelling is almost completely gone at this moment. The more I try to do, the more swelling I have and the pain from just a slight touch is too much for me. I can’t really even touch my own foot and my daughter stepped on it and so did her father. Of course from the sounds I made, they were very apologetic. They were accidentally stepping on it or laying on it. I haven’t really done much elevating for the swelling. I have been doing everything from the bed. It is still swollen from trying to sit up in the daytime. I am going to prop myself up with some pillows and then elevate Saturday and Sunday. I am ready for the game but have no idea what we are cooking. Living with a diabetic and a child with food allergies makes dinner a huge decision since we all need to be on different diets.

My weight is up instead of down for a change. I feel better but I need a lot of stuff to take care of my health properly and it cost money. I am going to take it one day at a time. Since he quit his job, he is home all the time temporarily. He feels better as a person but taking a loss in income at anytime is hard. We got big plans but I don’t want to have to struggle. Even though it would be for a moment. Like we got all this chicken but nobody wants to eat it. Need some more recipes with chicken in them. With him here, the heat turned down and the window be open. The light be on all the time and I can barely get to this Playstation. We are adjusting and luckily he is looking for work instead of just laying around all the time. He basically quit his job when his boss replaced him with his uncle. I don’t blame him but miss the income.

I am back to braiding hair after years of retirement. I only braid my hair and my daughters’. She likes beads, what they call BoBos, and berets. I don’t do beads and if I did, I would need a beading tool that comes with the beads. My hair is already braided thankfully. Her hair is clean but sucks up moisture very quickly. And our hair is growing. Once I wash my hair and add the oils to it, it stays moist. My daughter has eczema and her hair and scalp stays dry. I changed my Twitter profile picture to the hairstyle that I want to try. But by me not using too many products in my hair, I don’t have to wash it every two weeks like I used to which makes things easier for me. I am considering adding some weave to it soon. I want some color and the person who was dying my hair is too busy. I could try to do it myself and let it come out in more than one blended color but I will wait until it gets dirty to do the dye. Plus the dye that I am going to use is a powder which makes it more intimidating. I need a list of all the stuff I need to do it and you can get the list of things you will need from the website. Why powder you ask? Because I want Strawberry Blonde and I couldn’t find that color online when I was shopping except in the powder form. Braiding my daughter hair would be easier if she would let me freestyle but at her age, she wants specific hair styles like I mentioned before. Either way, I don’t have to stand up and braid since she is a kid and I need to get her some hair products from the beauty supply store.

The reason why I was posting so much about the games we are playing was because that is all I have been doing while in the bed. Playing games and writing. I posted a few poems here and noticed that this may be the wrong place to put that kind of poetry. What they call dark and explicit. No one liked the two that I did put up but I know a lot of people that enjoy reading my poems. When I had this site the first time, I posted a lot of poetry. I am working on a book of poems by me that has a warning label on it that says Mature like these games and CD’s do. The book is coming along fine but I haven’t been working on it at all this past week which was a rough one but it went by very fast. I ran out of cigars, right after I ran out of Pepsi. Single income family now basically until further notice and yes I am on him but also giving him some time to rest and think. He is a lot easier to deal with now that he is no longer working for that lady. He is drinking less too. I didn’t realize how bad it was for him until he quit. It was like he was finally able to exhale or something. We got our worries but not that many. These bills need to be paid right away as we all know.

For the new followers of this blog, thank you and please look around the site a bit. There is a lot of missing content but not because we are lazy. Because we have been busy and now we were resting up for today. I do not feel like going anywhere but I have that appointment today and really can’t reschedule it. So while I am out today, I am going to grab something to smoke on for a week or so. I know the doctor is probably going to tell me to take them opioids for the pain in my feet but I would rather smoke which they do and don’t have a problem with. However, my lungs and heart sound good. My thyroid test should be in a few weeks because I will not over book myself this month. That’s probably where the swelling came from. Doing too much running here and there in this cold. And it is not going to warm up anytime soon. It is 10 degrees right now with snow on the ground. I have to figure out how to get my feet into a pair of shoes but they are so sore that I am scared to try on some shoes and walk in them even in my own house. I have two pairs of comfortable shoes but I am taking my house shoes with me just in case. If the doctors are worried about inflammation, they will prescribe something like Motrin or Naproxen. I prescribe myself with small doses of marijuana for this pain. Just need to get up and go. I will be sure to wear my glasses so they can’t tell my eyes are red. Good morning to whoever took time to read this. It’s going to be a busy day for me.

 

 

 

Cooking dinner.

Something like a luxury. I like to cook it now. It’s just hard to cook with tremors. He asked me to finish cooking the sausage for dinner but I have no idea what we are eating. I am not type of person that takes pictures of anything. My hands be shaking or my finger. I could take a muscle relaxer but I have my daughter and they make you sleepy.

I woke up with my eye swollen almost closed. The second time in a month. I am tired. At least my body is which a lot of people don’t understand. My body feel like I been fighting. Not pain but drained of energy. I had no caffeine today. My husband and family asked me to stop drinking so much. I been drinking water all day and organizing everything for my appointment with the new PCP. Haven’t had a PCP in years. I am hopeful about this doctor though. Internal Medicine. The kind of primary care physician people with Dystonia need. Too tired to do my hair but I am not missing this appointment. I will wear a scarf like usual and what my husband asked me to wear when I am riding in the car with him. It will be a lot warmer tomorrow than today anyway.

My hair need to be braided in the at night before and took in the morning. If I have to go out. I can’t sleep on it unless it’s braided. To hard to untangle. I could braid it back. I have 19 braids. There is a girl on Facebook who charge $1 a braid who could braid it back. She is advertising. And looks young. It would only be about $25 if I were to do it. Infact. I need to ask her how much she would charge. Just braid them back with that same product. My hair is dirty but not that dirty. Not by appearance. I’ll just wear a scarf. One that matches my clothes to the doctor. I have to finish cooking my daughter food. She’s hungry but I am not yet. I will be in a few hours. After I finish my hair. Husband says leave it like it is because it doesn’t look dirty. So did my daughter so I will spray it with some oil. I will post about it soon. Works great!