New Walk, Old Shoes

The African American Trades & Goods received its first goods this month. We have been busy spreading the word locally and building a customer base. I invested some money in the oils that I wanted to blend with great success. I wasn’t able to make a whole lot of oil but I was able to make enough for me and my family and have some leftover. I love making the oil blends. My first client was Tom Wilson, my husband and the Founder of African American Trades & Goods. I made him a special blend of oils to help relieve an itchy and dry scalp from eczema. I also made a massage oil for us which relieves stress and a blend of oils for my hair and scalp. I bought some essential oils and carrier oils. Some of the cheaper brands of essential oils did not smell like they should and I lost about $14 at the most. All the other oils that I bought worked out well and I have blended different types which I intend on selling as soon as we get a logo and some labels unless it’s by request.

This website is still undergoing changes. I haven’t been posting as often because I have been busy trying to figure out what direction I want this website to go in. I was raising Dystonia Awareness when I started but now I am not even sure if I have it. Seeing a Movement Disorder Specialist was my goal but learning to live with whatever I have and being able to function on an everyday basis became more important than appointments. Once I got the papers for my medical marijuana license, I started eliminating medication that I either was tired of taking, wasn’t working, or caused some form of dependence. I have went from 15 or more pills a day to 3 or 4 a day over the course of the last six months. I am starting to stray away from Pepsi altogether but I have started drinking iced coffee from Tim Hortons, water when it is purified, and more tea.

I have purchased two vape pens. One for nicotine because I have grown tired of Lex 12 Nappa Night Cigars and Lex 12 Cigars period. In fact, I am tired of all the cigars I normally smoke including those Black & Mild’s I have been smoking since high school and can no longer smoke. They make me develop a chronic cough. I have not smoked one in quite some time. I have a Tru Blu vape pen for now and I like it but, they don’t make the type of flavors I like. I also was able to find a different type of Al Capone Cigar which I have fell in love with. Al Capone filtered Jamaican Blaze Cigars. I will be transitioning to them next month. They have a great flavor that pairs well with my vape pens and medical marijuana. I had to learn how to roll up all over again. I no longer use Swishers. I use tobacco less, vegan, CBD, GMO free wraps by High Hemp. They come in quite a few flavors or you can get the plain kind. I get them according to what I am smoking on that day.

My compression stockings are in the drawer and I haven’t worn them in over a week. All that swelling and pain for all that time was from a very simple problem that the doctors never considered but I did. What if the swelling is coming from wearing the wrong shoes? I mean literally. Nothing more. Nothing less. No need to have any testing done which makes less trips to the doctor. Not one doctor that I am seeing considered that. Not one doctor asked me what type of shoes do I wear when I am at home. Instead, they switched my blood pressure medication to one that acts as a water pill and a blood pressure all at once. Lets just say that there is no way in the world I was going to keep taking a medication that makes me have to go to the bathroom that many times in a few hours unless it is absolutely necessary. So I stopped taking the water pills and put me some shoes on. What swelling?

My ankles stopped swelling up after I put on the most comfortable shoes that I have and limited the amount of time I spent in house shoes. I was walking around the house in shower or boat shoes. The kind of shoes that you can get wet, take off, and drain the water out by rolling the shoes up into their selves. They have drainage holes and are worn like socks with a rubber bottom. I walked all over in those shoes for at least eight months. One day after the swelling had finally went down, I put on some LeBron James Basketball shoes and was in bliss and still am. How comfortable basketball shoes are is amazing. I don’t know how other people feel about them but they have always got me threw a day in comfort. I have on some brand new old LeBron James shoes in the daytime and I put on the house shoes in the evening. Oh what a relief this was. I am going to wear these shoes until I tear them up. By that time, I should be able to afford some more. I also found that Sperry shoes and baseball shoes also work. I still need to wear the in lays with them but not the compression stockings.

 

Tired from doing what?

The biggest part of having Dystonia is the progression but just as important is the fatigue. You can get all the sleep that is possible and still wake up feeling what we call “tired”. People ask what I did today that would cause me to be so tired but it’s not what I did today that makes me tired. It could be me being tired from what I did the day before. Yes. They day before or even the day before that.

Most of us use different methods to stay woke but the medications we take make us drowsy and come with that do not drive or operate heavy machinery warning. I have been trying to stay woke all day and go to bed at the same time every night. It is working to a certain extent. I need something to do still even though I am disabled and retired. Recently, I have been having problems opening my eyes in the morning again. This makes getting up everyday even harder. Sometimes I can’t go to sleep at night and end up sleeping all day. No matter what I do or don’t do, I am still going to suffer from fatigue during the day and especially in the morning when I am about to start the day.

I have been working on this website and connecting with more people who are interested in African American Trades & Goods. I myself am trying to start a business selling the oil combinations that I make and use for me and my daughters’ hair which she believes is making our hair grow. Right now, we both have the same hair style. High Pony Tails. Hers is bigger than mine of course. This is because the person who was supposed to do our hair is busy. Our hair is long enough to get away with neat ponytails now so why not wear one.

I have went through the withdrawal symptoms of taking Valium for all those years and came out on the other side just fine. I am glad I have medical marijuana access in my state because that helped a lot with the nausea and insomnia. The down side is that I have a higher tolerance now. I need a certain dosage a day to stop the tremors. I smoke more if the quality is bad like what I just recently bought and yes, even with a license or card, you still can end up with old or weaker strains of what you need. Even though you are going to a dispensary. Look close before you buy is what you should do.

I am feeling much better now that I am no longer dependent on any medication finally. I feel so much better that I am going to celebrate soon. I was getting my hair done by a family member just to get it done. I really don’t have any plans to go any where. I just want somebody I know does good work to braid my hair for a change. Of course it is not for free but it is a family discount that I can use and part of African American Trades & Goods.  We are just getting the goods in now and the site is going to be updated soon. Please do subscribe or I will keep you posted here as the changes are made and the site gets new content.

Protective Hair Styles

Protective hair styles are styles that seal in moisture like braids and twist. I keep my hair in a protective style and add oils and something for hold as needed. My hair is growing good and my scalp is no longer dry. I made an oil that is unisex and should relieve itching and dryness of the scalp and give a bit of aromatherapy in one swoop. I am using it on my hair and two other family members. They have Eczema so without a protective style, they have to apply the oil to their hair everyday. Scalp every other day or two. The good thing is that I was able to try it on someone besides myself and I remember the recipe. I am running out of this oil fast but can make some more to sell or for personal use. I am thinking of trying to sell it. Keep the price really low at the beginning since I would just be selling it to friends and family. Just thinking ahead like I am about my next hair style since I braid my own hair for now anyway. I try to keep it as simple but cute as I can.

My normal protective hair style required rubber bands at the ends because my hair is thick and I like the bigger sized braids. Especially if I am doing the hair. I am now rubber band free. It has grown enough for me not to even need the rubber bands at all. I just need something for hold on the ends. I have been paying very close attention to them and they are not split or damaged anymore. They were dry too and that is no longer the case. I do not use water to detangle because I do not need to detangle anymore. The products I use speak for themselves and are in the products we use section of this sight. Most of the products I use, I order from Amazon and the rest I get in the neighborhood. Olive Oil is always the base oil or carrier oil right now. I may switch to a different carrier oil soon. You can get a starter set at a really good price and sometimes on sale. Then you start your blend. I know other ladies who are doing the same thing. We could start this business right away and really take off during the Spring.

My first tester was me. After I liked it, I tried it on my daughters’ hair. And also her scalp. Her scalp did well and so did her hair where I put the braids. She liked the way it smelled. Her scalp stayed moist for a few days. The part that I braided is still moist and it has been this way for over a week. Her father was next. He says it worked on his hair for a day or so. Before I run out of this kind, I need another females’ opinion. Men don’t necessarily care about which oil to use in their hair. My daughters’ father likes Pantene for Natural or Permed hair. It is a good product but very heavy. I like light weight oils to prevent build up and to keep it from getting so dirty so fast. Even the gel I use for my hair contains oils and is light weight.

I don’t know exactly what is making my hair grow so fast. I was doing the not using oil on your scalp anymore challenge until my head started itching and I noticed those flakes. Since I have been oiling my scalp regularly, those flakes have disappeared. My daughters’ hair is also growing and we try to keep hers braided to promote growth and seal in moisture. This is the first time I grew my hair this long and decided to keep growing it. Next month I am cashing out on hair products. I am a little behind.

 

 

A system cleaning

I did not realize what was going on with me until about 5 days ago. I am not affected by them Opioid Crisis at all even though I do take pain medication. My doctor warned me ahead of time thankfully. I started weening off all pills because of the thought of addiction or a better term for it, dependence. I don’t want to need to take a pill to feel better every single time I am in pain or stiff or etc. As you get order, those pills will eat the lining of your stomach. I have been on some sort of pain medication since I was 12 taking Naproxen. Since 2009, I have been very careful with the amount of medication I take. Mainly because I have a child and need to stay alert when she is under my care.

Dystonia makes you feel old before your time and the treatment can sometimes be 11 to 12 pills a day or more. At some point I had too much medication. And I needed to take most of it to function. Times are different now. Now I have the Marijuana Card or license back, I need less pills. The bad news is that I am purposely weening myself off all these pills. But I am suffering from withdrawal. It is not bad and I had it worse when I was dependant on Klonopin. I had constant migraines. I would have to take a pill just to get some relief. This time I don’t know what pills are causing the withdrawal. It feels like I need something like a cigar, but I don’t. I am a bit jittery but I am not twitching or shaking too much in the day time. At night I am jerking and waking myself up out of my sleep.

I am micro dosing the Marijuana to get me through the day with the least amount of pills as possible. The withdrawal syptoms would be really hard to deal with if I wasn’t able to get the Medical Marijuana. The nausea and vomiting is withdrawal too. That was the warning sign and also a good sign. I am getting this medicine out of my system slowly. If I do it too fast, I wouldn’t be able to afford to smoke my medicine because I would need more. Luckily the growers are trying to help me and cutting me some deals at the shop. They noticed how I was walking and could immediately tell it was my ankles now. I am going to get my compression stockings today or tomorrow and also that blood pressure monitor. I also need to put the prescription in for the water pills because we do know that I am retaining water for sure. What we don’t know yet is the reason why and I don’t think the x-rays will give us the answer although I am still going to have them done.

With this pen and a little strain mixing, I am able to function well through the day with some pain. The pain would be worse if I didn’t vape or smoke something. It is an article out about how dangerous it is to vape oil because of the tar. Tar? It also says that we as consumers do not know what is in the oil. Why we don’t? I know who it came from. A grower who sells to the shop and the shop sells very good oil. It has been tested and they can explain to you what is in it. People are laughing at the article but it does show how ignorant some people can be. I would be more concerned with the Marijuana itself and how it was grown since I am putting it in my body. All my doctor’s support it but one. The pain management doctor who comes to the house. The bottom line is that I look and feel much more alert and functional in the morning especially.

I have been able to get up with my daughter every day before she goes to school. The withdrawal she can not tell. It is not noticable. I can do her hair on one day and mine on the next. I have been doing %80 of everything from my bed because of the swelling. Right now it is my feet. They are puffy. My daughter knows I have to rest a lot and she also knows that my eye swelling up is worse than my ankles. She knows how it feels because it happened to her once and we do not know the exact cause. We do know it was her allergies and she needed to go to the ER. I just use a hot towel but would be so embarrassed if I had to go to work with my eye almost swollen closed. It affects your vision. And I have a droopy eye already that they wanted to do surgery on. I am able to keep my daughter while he is away handling business which I am proud of. I do not want to be absent during the important parts of her life. I haven’t took anymore pictures yet but I got the camera on the phone working better.

I will be adding more pictures to this blog soon. Not of me but of the products we use for our hair and other products I love. The movie section is empty for a reason. I haven’t watched a movie in some time. I have been reading more and playing the game. I still haven’t been able to play Destiny 2 that much. I always choose to play Mortal Kombat XL because I am getting better at it. I am finally used to wearing my glasses now. I usually don’t wear them in the house but I need to start trying more. I need to get up and put them on first. The Dystonia spread to my eyes years ago. My eyes are very sensitive to light. Even the TV and the phones. All the things that we use. I adjusted my devices that I own to my vision needs. The televisions in here are adjusted with more brightness so to watch certain movies, I need to wear the glasses to be on the safe side and for when I am playing the game too. I suffer from eye fatigue. Fatigue period. I can get through the withdrawal syptoms with this vape pen and a few other items that I am going to get. Cleaning my system out at this exact time if very important. At times, I clean all the Marijuana from my system to lower my tolerance. This way, I don’t get burnt out on cannabis.

 

Braiding with oil

When you use light products in your natural hair, it doesn’t get dirty as fast. Want you want to do if you are growing your hair like me is seal in moisture especially during the Winter. I seal moisture in from using different kinds of oils. Nothing to heavy. I have posted about them here before.

This is one off my favorite products to just rub on from root to tip if your hair starts to look dry and it is also great for blow outs.

20180204_113141.jpg I use this mixed with some more oils when I first was my hair. It smells great and doesn’t really need to be used on an everyday basis. It comes in a rather small bottle but a little goes a long way. I haven’t tried it it my daughters’ hair yet because I used Olive Oil mixed with other oils in her hair.

I oiled hair scalp and hair and redid the high pony which I am so tired of but looks really cute on her. It’s the fact that she doesn’t like to get her hair combed. She never did but she can take her own braids out now which saves me time. To re braid her hair, I used the products below.

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It came out well but her hair is really thick. It’s just as thick as mine so it is harder to comb. Once you get all the oils in it, it is more manageable. If you you have dry hair or scalp, I recommend giving this product and the ones in the other picture a try. Makes your hair shine and look and feel healthy.

Insomnia or is my sleep schedule off?

Once I started to limit my activity’s, I started sleeping all day and waking up in the middle of the night after everyone else is gone to bed. Not spending as much time with my daughter as I would like but even she knew I either needed to rest or go to Urgent Care. I decided to rest. This is day three or four days of basic bed rest. Luckily her father can make sure I have everything I need up the stairs.

The swelling is almost completely gone at this moment. The more I try to do, the more swelling I have and the pain from just a slight touch is too much for me. I can’t really even touch my own foot and my daughter stepped on it and so did her father. Of course from the sounds I made, they were very apologetic. They were accidentally stepping on it or laying on it. I haven’t really done much elevating for the swelling. I have been doing everything from the bed. It is still swollen from trying to sit up in the daytime. I am going to prop myself up with some pillows and then elevate Saturday and Sunday. I am ready for the game but have no idea what we are cooking. Living with a diabetic and a child with food allergies makes dinner a huge decision since we all need to be on different diets.

My weight is up instead of down for a change. I feel better but I need a lot of stuff to take care of my health properly and it cost money. I am going to take it one day at a time. Since he quit his job, he is home all the time temporarily. He feels better as a person but taking a loss in income at anytime is hard. We got big plans but I don’t want to have to struggle. Even though it would be for a moment. Like we got all this chicken but nobody wants to eat it. Need some more recipes with chicken in them. With him here, the heat turned down and the window be open. The light be on all the time and I can barely get to this Playstation. We are adjusting and luckily he is looking for work instead of just laying around all the time. He basically quit his job when his boss replaced him with his uncle. I don’t blame him but miss the income.

I am back to braiding hair after years of retirement. I only braid my hair and my daughters’. She likes beads, what they call BoBos, and berets. I don’t do beads and if I did, I would need a beading tool that comes with the beads. My hair is already braided thankfully. Her hair is clean but sucks up moisture very quickly. And our hair is growing. Once I wash my hair and add the oils to it, it stays moist. My daughter has eczema and her hair and scalp stays dry. I changed my Twitter profile picture to the hairstyle that I want to try. But by me not using too many products in my hair, I don’t have to wash it every two weeks like I used to which makes things easier for me. I am considering adding some weave to it soon. I want some color and the person who was dying my hair is too busy. I could try to do it myself and let it come out in more than one blended color but I will wait until it gets dirty to do the dye. Plus the dye that I am going to use is a powder which makes it more intimidating. I need a list of all the stuff I need to do it and you can get the list of things you will need from the website. Why powder you ask? Because I want Strawberry Blonde and I couldn’t find that color online when I was shopping except in the powder form. Braiding my daughter hair would be easier if she would let me freestyle but at her age, she wants specific hair styles like I mentioned before. Either way, I don’t have to stand up and braid since she is a kid and I need to get her some hair products from the beauty supply store.

The reason why I was posting so much about the games we are playing was because that is all I have been doing while in the bed. Playing games and writing. I posted a few poems here and noticed that this may be the wrong place to put that kind of poetry. What they call dark and explicit. No one liked the two that I did put up but I know a lot of people that enjoy reading my poems. When I had this site the first time, I posted a lot of poetry. I am working on a book of poems by me that has a warning label on it that says Mature like these games and CD’s do. The book is coming along fine but I haven’t been working on it at all this past week which was a rough one but it went by very fast. I ran out of cigars, right after I ran out of Pepsi. Single income family now basically until further notice and yes I am on him but also giving him some time to rest and think. He is a lot easier to deal with now that he is no longer working for that lady. He is drinking less too. I didn’t realize how bad it was for him until he quit. It was like he was finally able to exhale or something. We got our worries but not that many. These bills need to be paid right away as we all know.

For the new followers of this blog, thank you and please look around the site a bit. There is a lot of missing content but not because we are lazy. Because we have been busy and now we were resting up for today. I do not feel like going anywhere but I have that appointment today and really can’t reschedule it. So while I am out today, I am going to grab something to smoke on for a week or so. I know the doctor is probably going to tell me to take them opioids for the pain in my feet but I would rather smoke which they do and don’t have a problem with. However, my lungs and heart sound good. My thyroid test should be in a few weeks because I will not over book myself this month. That’s probably where the swelling came from. Doing too much running here and there in this cold. And it is not going to warm up anytime soon. It is 10 degrees right now with snow on the ground. I have to figure out how to get my feet into a pair of shoes but they are so sore that I am scared to try on some shoes and walk in them even in my own house. I have two pairs of comfortable shoes but I am taking my house shoes with me just in case. If the doctors are worried about inflammation, they will prescribe something like Motrin or Naproxen. I prescribe myself with small doses of marijuana for this pain. Just need to get up and go. I will be sure to wear my glasses so they can’t tell my eyes are red. Good morning to whoever took time to read this. It’s going to be a busy day for me.

 

 

 

Raising Awareness?

I have been trying to raise Dystonia Awareness but most people are not really interested in learning what it is and how it would affect their health. How many people see the word Dystonia and actually look up the meaning or wonder what it is. Most doctors can not diagnose it and you end up being diagnosed with other illnesses by mistake. I was diagnosed with MS which everyone has heard of but even I can’t remember how to spell it. Probably because I took the shots to treat it for two years and was then told by the Neurologist at the time that I didn’t have it. 7 years later, I am diagnosed with Myoclonic Dystonia and Occasional Tremors. Makes good sense to me. I have less control of my muscles than I did 10 years ago which means whatever I have is progressing along very slow.

I decided not to go to the Urgent Care because of the weather and my ride simply didn’t want to drive in this snow just so they could tell me the same thing the doctor said. Rest and elevate my feet. Watch what I eat and go light on the salt. I am not monitoring my blood pressure yet and I haven’t started any new medications. The soaking brought the swelling down a lot plus not being on my feet today or yesterday. I am not really even supposed to be sitting here typing this because the swelling can be caused by sitting to long. As far as Dystonia Awareness goes, I am raising a bit of awareness everyday but I do take a break from all the medical problems to focus on other things. Like raising my child and keeping our appearances up to the best of my ability.

I am using the laptop right now because he is gone and I only needed to use it for a hour before I play Mortal Kombat XL. I can prop myself up in the bed to play. It is cold with fresh snow on the ground. I don’t have to go to another appointment until Friday so it gives me plenty of time to rest, soak, and elevate through out each day and maybe by the time of my appointment, I can get my feet in them boots. I am the type of person who exercises by doing the stairs all day and I still am but not as much as normal and I am using half my speed making sure that I don’t step the wrong way and fall on the stairs again. I fell and twisted my ankle on the stairs last year and that hurt more than this does. This is more of an uncomfortable feeling and they seem to leave stuff in the walk ways as if they don’t remember that I can trip over it.

I am not focusing on the Dystonia right now because of the constant swelling in my feet, ankles, and part of my legs. It only really hurts when I try to bend the ankles or someone steps on my foot. There is no more swelling anywhere. Not even in my eyes right now. The marijuana helps with the pain and also helps with sleep. Some types work better than others. I am currently using THC instead of CBD for now and I am still using my pipe to smoke it. Such an easy way to do it and helps me dose myself. I am not really a recreational smoker or social. I am learning but I am aware that if it is not grown right or they use chemicals on it, it could have a negative affect on my muscles. It has happened in the past before I started to go get everything from a grower or the dispensary.

Nothing from that dispensary taste good or like it should but they keep the prices low since they are in the neighborhood. I am going somewhere else with better quality than them soon. I am also looking for something to help me sleep or relax the muscles. No more attacks since my last post about them which means that the cannabis is working. If I do have another attack, I know I don’t have to travel far for relief and on a good day, I can go a little bit father away to get better quality. And better tasting clean smoking marijuana. You can not imagine how many people try to sell me something through Twitter but they don’t have real pictures. If I was and I am going to sell something like that to anyone, I would definitely have a picture that is current and that I just didn’t do a Google search to find an image off it to trick someone into buying. So called weed men on Twitter seem to not understand this and they just grab an image off Google and DM you that waste of time picture that I can download myself. I sure hope when doing business on Twitter of this nature that you are being careful because these people are only out to get your money and once they get it, all you can do is complain. After all, they are not really using their real name. Some don’t even have enough sense to hold a conversation with a potential client but they love to spit that game like they can suck the credit card number out your pocket. I just have learned to ignore those DM’s now.

The laptop is more fun to use because of the keyboard. I can also see a lot better what I am typing on here than the new tablet. That AT&T Primetime tablet is really nice. Especially since it was free and you only have to pay $10 a month to have one of your own. It has the speakers on the front instead of the back which is a plus and it takes amazing pictures. The battery life is good fresh out the box and all you do is sign in to your Google account to get all your apps on the new device and then connect it to or discover other devices. It was an easy set up. It came by delivery in a timely manner. I have switched from the laptop to the tablet but I am able to continue where I left off. The prediction of the next word you might type is good and it has auto correct already on it. There really isn’t much that I had to do to set it up and I was able to turn the tablet into a phone just by following the very simple instructions on the screen. I fixed the settings for the keyboard and found what I was looking for. I wish this tablet would automatically put a period at the end of a sentence but my phone can’t even do that. I am using G Board by Google. You can really customize the way it looks and feels when you type. 👍