I did not realize what was going on with me until about 5 days ago. I am not affected by them Opioid Crisis at all even though I do take pain medication. My doctor warned me ahead of time thankfully. I started weening off all pills because of the thought of addiction or a better term for it, dependence. I don’t want to need to take a pill to feel better every single time I am in pain or stiff or etc. As you get order, those pills will eat the lining of your stomach. I have been on some sort of pain medication since I was 12 taking Naproxen. Since 2009, I have been very careful with the amount of medication I take. Mainly because I have a child and need to stay alert when she is under my care.
Dystonia makes you feel old before your time and the treatment can sometimes be 11 to 12 pills a day or more. At some point I had too much medication. And I needed to take most of it to function. Times are different now. Now I have the Marijuana Card or license back, I need less pills. The bad news is that I am purposely weening myself off all these pills. But I am suffering from withdrawal. It is not bad and I had it worse when I was dependant on Klonopin. I had constant migraines. I would have to take a pill just to get some relief. This time I don’t know what pills are causing the withdrawal. It feels like I need something like a cigar, but I don’t. I am a bit jittery but I am not twitching or shaking too much in the day time. At night I am jerking and waking myself up out of my sleep.
I am micro dosing the Marijuana to get me through the day with the least amount of pills as possible. The withdrawal syptoms would be really hard to deal with if I wasn’t able to get the Medical Marijuana. The nausea and vomiting is withdrawal too. That was the warning sign and also a good sign. I am getting this medicine out of my system slowly. If I do it too fast, I wouldn’t be able to afford to smoke my medicine because I would need more. Luckily the growers are trying to help me and cutting me some deals at the shop. They noticed how I was walking and could immediately tell it was my ankles now. I am going to get my compression stockings today or tomorrow and also that blood pressure monitor. I also need to put the prescription in for the water pills because we do know that I am retaining water for sure. What we don’t know yet is the reason why and I don’t think the x-rays will give us the answer although I am still going to have them done.
With this pen and a little strain mixing, I am able to function well through the day with some pain. The pain would be worse if I didn’t vape or smoke something. It is an article out about how dangerous it is to vape oil because of the tar. Tar? It also says that we as consumers do not know what is in the oil. Why we don’t? I know who it came from. A grower who sells to the shop and the shop sells very good oil. It has been tested and they can explain to you what is in it. People are laughing at the article but it does show how ignorant some people can be. I would be more concerned with the Marijuana itself and how it was grown since I am putting it in my body. All my doctor’s support it but one. The pain management doctor who comes to the house. The bottom line is that I look and feel much more alert and functional in the morning especially.
I have been able to get up with my daughter every day before she goes to school. The withdrawal she can not tell. It is not noticable. I can do her hair on one day and mine on the next. I have been doing %80 of everything from my bed because of the swelling. Right now it is my feet. They are puffy. My daughter knows I have to rest a lot and she also knows that my eye swelling up is worse than my ankles. She knows how it feels because it happened to her once and we do not know the exact cause. We do know it was her allergies and she needed to go to the ER. I just use a hot towel but would be so embarrassed if I had to go to work with my eye almost swollen closed. It affects your vision. And I have a droopy eye already that they wanted to do surgery on. I am able to keep my daughter while he is away handling business which I am proud of. I do not want to be absent during the important parts of her life. I haven’t took anymore pictures yet but I got the camera on the phone working better.
I will be adding more pictures to this blog soon. Not of me but of the products we use for our hair and other products I love. The movie section is empty for a reason. I haven’t watched a movie in some time. I have been reading more and playing the game. I still haven’t been able to play Destiny 2 that much. I always choose to play Mortal Kombat XL because I am getting better at it. I am finally used to wearing my glasses now. I usually don’t wear them in the house but I need to start trying more. I need to get up and put them on first. The Dystonia spread to my eyes years ago. My eyes are very sensitive to light. Even the TV and the phones. All the things that we use. I adjusted my devices that I own to my vision needs. The televisions in here are adjusted with more brightness so to watch certain movies, I need to wear the glasses to be on the safe side and for when I am playing the game too. I suffer from eye fatigue. Fatigue period. I can get through the withdrawal syptoms with this vape pen and a few other items that I am going to get. Cleaning my system out at this exact time if very important. At times, I clean all the Marijuana from my system to lower my tolerance. This way, I don’t get burnt out on cannabis.
I wear a lot of scarves. All different colors and designs. I also keep my Natural Hair braided during the night. I made this in 5 minutes using Google photos. Everyone liked my hair in that picture but it is too cold to wear it like that. Just wanted to share. I am using my phone to post while the AT&T Primetime tablet is on charge. It still hasn’t ran out of energy. I put it on charge twice now. For shorter post, I just use my Galaxy Note 5. I love my phone but it is old and the battery will not stay charged even if I am not even using it. I can file an insurance claim but it would be a waste of money at this point. Almost time to upgrade to the Note 8. I can’t wait.
This swelling issue has been going on for too long and my ankles, feet and legs hurt. Since it was my first time seeing the new doctor, when I showed her my ankle, she didn’t really act like it was a big deal. My eye she said it would be easier to figure out what is going on with it, if she could have seen it first hand. Like I said in a previous post, she thinks it is my allergies even though I take allergy medicine everyday. She also said that I could have built up a tolerance for the kind that I take and said to rotate this one with the other kind. When my eyes are puffy or almost swollen closed, I am supposed to take the Zyrtec and it should bring the swelling down. No more hot towels according to her.
The pictures didn’t really show how bad the eye swelling was. Since this past Friday when I saw the doctor, my right eye was swollen instead of my left and now both of my feet. Part of my leg too. I haven’t filled the prescription yet or I need to go pick it up from the pharmacy. Both of my feet are swollen as well as my ankles. The swelling had gotten so bad that it had spread up into my right leg just below the knee and all the way to the foot. Everything felt tight when I woke up, I knew something was wrong since I had the same feeling with my eyes. I have limited my activities but still have to go up and down the stairs and that hurts. It is like I am on bed rest but making progress. I can’t do my hair yet because I would have to take a break from that standing with every braid.
I didn’t really elevate them. I didn’t try soaking. My other doctor which is Pain Management doc told me to limit my standing and or walking when they swell and I should be fine. He said it wasn’t a big deal in most people but in someone with my illness it is. I would rather go through the Internal Medicine doctor for this because it is more in line with the type of care she can provide. I also have two doctors that come out to the house at least once a month. One can take a look at my ankles and feet today. His office called yesterday to set up a home visit. I can show them to him and get a second opinion. The other doctor doesn’t want me to have these doctors who come to my house if I am going to be a patient of hers. She says that is like too many cooks in the kitchen but for me it is like a second opinion and a fresh set of eyes. Especially since it is limiting my daily activities at home with my child. She always needs something.
I have two appointments today and one I have to go out the house for. That will be a challenge. I can walk but it is really harder with my feet like this. I picked out all my so called outfits before the pain got this bad and hung them up in the closet. That way I can just grab one and be done. It hurts to even sit here and type this but I am not standing on my feet for sure. My ankles hurt when I try to move them and I can barely move the right one. I would feel a lot better if they were just swollen without the pain. The pain makes it hard for me to concentrate and nobody should have to lay and suffer in pain. I just don’t want to take a pain pill for it. It could get worse with me going to the doctor and coming back and that is when I would need a pill maybe. We all know about the opioid crisis and I don’t want to end up like that.
Everything is weird now with him being at home more. We have had one disagreement or two in the past few days. And they are still calling him to come in. He didn’t give them any notice. He told his boss how he needs things to be again and she ignored him again. Now he is really fed up and a bit cranky. I am lucky I can even use the laptop right now. Hopefully he got us some medicine. It may not be for pain necessarily, but it will help with the stiffness. It’s almost the weekend and I can really get some rest. Staying off my feet makes me feel lazy because it means I can’t exercise like I normally do. Going up and down the stairs all day is part of my daily routine. I do those stairs with pleasure. My Pain Management doctor was trying to put me in a wheel chair and I was not going to except that. I can’t walk normal like everyone else already. I am walking even worse right now. I am going down the stairs just to get water which someone can bring me but I don’t want to be a bother. I am glad that I do have some kind of help. Some people with Dystonia don’t and these Home Health Care Providers need to be getting paid more money for the work they do.
Behind closed doors I do. Most people just roll up but I can’t roll. I have to learn how to do it all over again. Trying to roll up anything when are shaking just isn’t going to happen. It’s hard enough for me to break down. I use a grinder sometimes. I smoke blunts and joints. Next time I am going to try to roll a joint. I like to do stuff that requires me to think first. How am I going to do it. I used to roll up twice a day with Swisher’s. I bought them by the case to save money. I was buying strawberry to cover up the taste of the depensary’s medical. Some of it worked but had a bad taste. I like mine to taste good.
Piping it gives you the actual taste as long as you keep your pipe clean. A gram of something that works really good will last me 3 days. I have low tolerance to some strains. And it depends on where I got it from. I tried a new dispensary today and got a free sample of some type of pre rolled. It tasted like it smelled. I wouldn’t buy it. I got what they call Fruity pebbles today. Last thing I tried was Wedding Cake 🍰 which they do keep but it cost more of course. Their prices were good for the selection they had. I am going to a different one next time. It is really nice and big. They sell Kosher which is for pain.
Many people with my disability are scared to try it. I tried it because I ran out of pills. It can happen to anybody. The pipe I bought because I love the way it looks and it breaks down into three pieces. It is easy to clean with water and pipe cleaners. The bowl is too small for some people, but not me. I medicate a little bit at a time. I normally smoke only Indica. Works good for the body and you don’t feel to amped up. The free one I was puffing on is now in the pipe. Somebody had to teach me how to use a pipe. I used to hate for my eyes to be red. The glasses I keep learning to wear because of that reason. Plus the help keep sunlight out my eyes since they are so sensitive now.
I appreciate delivery and my papers for my license were delivered to me ready to go. When I was feeling better, I went up there to visit the owners. The hold up was that doctor was out of town. When he got back in, he called me right away and I sent him my medical info from my last appointment. My papers were ready the next day. I was getting frustrated on how long it was taking. Like that pipe took 2 weeks or more to come. The new tablet comes next month.
Since he quit that job, it really don’t matter. I would think that they fired him and he just didn’t want to say. But they were calling. He was calling about a roofing job.
My hair is washed, detangled and oiled. I also did a blow out. After all that, my Dystonia started acting up. My pipe was ready and clean just in case I could go get something or have it delivered. So I went out dressed for spring with my favorite hoodie on. Thanks to that muscle relaxer I took. I was in that bad of shape and have been laying down since I got back. I can relax now and maybe get some sleep.
I use the old wind proof wick and flint kind of lighter. My Zippo was supposedly broke and I couldn’t get a spark let alone a flame. I replaced the wick but not the flint. Then I replaced the flint 6 years later after cleaning the ash from the old flint out with something like a tooth pick and the spark came back. I had already bought another one because I thought since the wheel had stopped moving, the lighter needed to go back to Zippo for repair. I was ready to fill out the form but I wasn’t sure if my printer was working. I watched a few YouTube videos about DIY repairs and came across a video of a man mentioning something about the ash left over from the old flint would keep it from working and you needed to remove it. Technically, you can use a stick from a broom to do this. And that is what I used to push that ash out. You can see it if you look very closely. It looks just like black ashes.
After I cleaned my Zippo, I put the new flint back in and it is working fine. I gave one away because I don’t need two. I like to change the outer part as long as the inside works properly and I am not a collector. Just a fan. I like to light whatever I smoke with a Zippo. Especially cigars. Maintaining a Zippo with the wick and flint is very easy once you watch a few how to’s. It was working good one day and it stopped so I clipped the wick even with the chimney and it still had no spark. I figured it was simple and when it quit working, I blamed it on the person who kept using it instead of buying one of his own. Who also doesn’t know how to fix them or maintain them when it wasn’t really his fault. He was using it too much and the wheel got stuck. All this requires you to do is take the screw out and adjust it. While doing this, you can change the flint if you need to. As far as unscrewing the screw, just use the outer case of the lighter itself. Doesn’t scatch it and saves a little time.
When you smoke, you need your own lighter instead of asking people for a light. With all the money I spent on gas station lighters that only last a few months, I could have developed a collection of lighters by now. Just like a collection of shoes or coins. I like to change it up according to my mood. Today I still love to use the red one but I do like this Butterfly. It was one of the first Zippos I had and means the most to me. You can use this post for yourself or share with a friend. A good Zippo is about $30 or less sometimes and it is guaranteed either way. Fix it yourself or send it back for the lifetime guarantee. And it has to be an authentic Zippo lighter or the warranty does not apply. You should buy yours from Amazon or Zippo itself. Both websites have some beautiful ones. I want a torch lighter next. It is better for a pipe and really wind proof. Best for the weather here where I am in the Winter since it is windy.
I like to wash my hair in nice warm water but my water isn’t staying hot long enough for me to do what I need to do to my hair. I had the same problem with washing my daughters’ hair and had to use a bottle of warm water to rinse the conditioners out. I forgot and shampooed my hair and by the time it was to rinse the second time, the water was too cold. You know. Warm on the skin but too cold for the scalp. So I got some bigger plastic bottles and warmed me some water up in a tea pot and it was too hot. At this rate, we can take a 30 minute shower which is good but we need a hot water tank like he said. Our water shouldn’t get that cold that fast.
Right now I have washed and used two conditioners. Now I am doing the first deep treatment. I like this Cantu product a lot and it is the only one by them that I use. It’s in the Natural Hair – Products we use section. It has to stay on for thirty minutes but smells so good. If you can’t see the label in that picture, it is called Cantu Shea Butter Deep Treatment Masque which you can get a Family Dollar sometimes. It cost around $9 but will last you a while depending on the lenth of your hair. I cover it with a plastic bag rather than a shower cap because I have so many plastic bags in my house, I might as well make some use of them. Everyone says I am cheap but why go buy some shower caps when the plastic bags do the same thing?
After I rinse the Cantu out, I have added another quick Masque just to make sure my hair is well conditioned and looks healthy. I use Eden Body Works Natural Hair Masque Treatment. It is also a deep conditioner. You leave it on for just 15 minutes unless somebody is in your way. I would say thirty minutes at the most. I also agree that you should never leave any product on your hair for more than an hour. I have done this and the results were terrible. Made it less manageable. Eden Body Works is Paraben and Sulfate free and both products are water based meaning the first ingredient on the label says water (Aqua) and in fact, all the products I use are water based products and 90% all natural. I always look for Paraben and Sulfate free products for my hair that are water based and add moisture not grease or heavy oils. I try to use things that are light on the hair to prevent build up and make whatever I am doing to it last longer.
I have like 10 calls to make this morning mainly for me a my daughters’ appointments. We have a lot. I have one Thursday and one Friday. Not making any more for January. I don’t want to over book and wear myself out. No matter what I do or say, I am still disabled and functioning at half of my abilities. I do my own hair still and will as long as I have the strength. I don’t rely on help from others because I am on a time schedule even though I can no longer work. Best way to put it is that my job now is to make sure I keep, make, and reschedule appointments for my house hold and to go to the doctor regularly. Specifically regarding my eyes and my thyroid. My ankle being swollen is from me doing too much but the eye thing I don’t understand yet and I don’t believe it’s just my allergies. The next time it is swollen I may go to urgent care if I have enough time.
I know these post can get weird on Twitter. Meaning it’s posting while I am on there. That is because I schedule them too. That way I can keep new content here daily. It is easy to add content so through out the day, as I run across new information or find something interesting, I just share it either on here or on Twitter which by the way I still love but I accidentally unfollowed someone. I feel kind of bad but in a way, it’s not like I knew them or anything. I don’t know anyone on Twitter. I just like how fast I can get information about health and the news. I am also on YouTube but only the sick part. I never made a video of me well but I am going to do so after I do my hair. I will add the link to it even though I don’t maintain my YouTube channel. My handle is Twistteddollface. On PS4 I am kushkola313 and BlackWhiskey313 but I don’t really play online. My husband does. I will add all this to the menu too. Contacts are important for business right now and we are running two websites and he is passing out fliers. He ended up smoking and thinking about how his boss was treating him and quit yesterday. We are trying to go into business for ourselves. Self-made. He won’t be sitting here playing the game all day and neither will I. We got too much stuff to do. Generate more money until he can find a better job or continue doing what he does best. Drive and grow. Making plans for a garden but we have a Pitbull in the yard. I hate when they pee on the fruits and vegetables.
In my window in the kitchen has enough room to start growing some herbs. I used to put the little baby plants there because of the sunlight. They did good. Mine. The ones I got from someone else must have gotten stressed and they did very poor with that amount of sun and water I was giving them. My cousin is growing some of everything but lost her plants because the Christmas tree was blocking the light. The ones she got left I can get a piece of and finish rooting them in water before we plant them in the dirt. We are also looking into edibles. I get quite a few good recipes from Leafly that I haven’t tried yet. Cookies are okay. Ribs would be a lot better. I did a Pepsi rib that actually tasted like Pepsi because it was marinated overnight. So tender.
I am using the phone to post today because everyone is sleep. I didn’t smoke before I went to bed and woke up cold because someone decided it was too hot and opened the window. Yes it is warmer outside for now but not so warm that you need to open your windows yet. I have on my hoodie again for this reason. His blood pressure must stay high or he just like cold air when he sleeps. I know it makes me stiff so if I can’t move, it’s his fault. And he is going to have to get me something to relax my muscles and get rid of these aches and pains. Shop opens early so I should be fine. Hot water is better now. It could be because it hadn’t been used all night. I don’t know but I do know that I need to start pricing hot water tanks. We are going to need one right away.